The reality of an upcoming raid opportunity finally sunk in, so I got Aely to 90 on Sunday. I still have a few lingering quests in Kun Lai before I get the achievement, and two more quest hubs in Townlong. That, plus cooking quests, plus farming quests, plus… let’s just say a quest log that only holds 25 quests just isn’t gonna cut it right now!
I’ve got a set of crafted gear, so my ilevel is enough to run heroics, but I’m way short of being able to do LFR. I’ll be working on that with friends as I can find people online – my wonky schedule is going to make grouping hard, since I go to bed at 7 server time.
I’m depending on Icy Veins to get my skills up to speed in terms of how to not suck at being a ret paladin. I think my spec is decent, and I’ve got a stat priority now. I downloaded ClcRet to help me memorize a raiding rotation. Still need to get glyphs. I’m probably not going to waste a ton of materials on enchants for gear that is essentially just a placeholder.
Right now I just feel really behind.
When it didn’t matter and I wasn’t responsible to anyone, I didn’t really care that I wasn’t capped or doing dailies. I figured I had time for whatever. I still have time, as my raid isn’t starting for a few weeks yet, but I really would like to avoid the game feeling like a second job. I’m finding that my sense of personal responsibility is kicking in. Which is to say, I’m feeling guilty about ignoring WoW to take care of other parts of my life, like running errands or planning a Thanksgiving for 10 people, several of whom will be staying at my house, and will be bringing their dog.
I don’t like that feeling. I want gaming to be a fun hobby, not something I feel guilty about or anxious about. Granted, I’m the queen of making up things to be anxious about (see: Xanax), but finding a balance is going to be a lot harder with the way my job is right now.
After the first of the year, my schedule is changing. Really, it’s changing for the worse, as I’m no longer going to get every other Friday off (because my company is a bunch of turds who think that the way to solve a turnover/morale problem is to cut benefits, but that’s another post). But I’ll probably be able to stay up until 8 or 8:30 server on the new schedule, so my ability to group with people will be significantly better. Also more time for RP!
Still, that search for balance remains. How do I balance being a good, prepared, ready raider with not making the game into a second job? How do I balance life responsibilities (like a clean kitchen and a long commute and a high stress job) with game responsibilities (like having flasks and food for raids, being on time, knowing fights)?
You’d think, after *mumblemumble* years, I’d have this all figured out, but it seems like every time I think I have a handle on it, the game changes (see what I did there?)
The motto of this blog is “Because raiding and roleplay are not mutually exclusive” – something I truly still believe in and will fight for. Now I just have to figure out how to make “being a responsible adult” and “being a responsible gamer” not mutually exclusive either.
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